I can not, in good conscious, deny....

I can not
in steph-conscious
deny

that parallel to my feelings of horror that trump is woefully immoral and so psychologically damaged that he is unfit to lead, collaborate, negotiate, or intellectually grasp the intricacies of government and diplomacy...


someone, some American somewhere
some adult with children
some grown person with an advanced degree

doesn't care

so long as they hold power

actual traits or characteristics doesn't matter.

WAIT!




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